It’s been about a year since we have talked in real time. From day one, I felt an unexplainable bond to her, even though she is young enough to be my daughter. The bond was 10 times more powerful than anything I had ever experienced in all my life. Yes, there was a romantic component, but romance was not the core emotion. The love was so much deeper than that, yet I hardly knew her.
I asked her 3 times in as many months whether she felt the connection too. She never really said no, but clearly, she never said yes. On the third ask, she got angry. I don’t allow anyone to treat me that way, so I walked away. We haven’t communicated since.
Based on a little research over the past months, I feel that it is very possible that this is a twin flame connection. Early on, I tried my hardest to break it. After 10 months of trying, I thought I had. That was almost 2 months ago. The connection is greatly diminished now, but still exists.
These days I’m doing ok, but I still think about her and I still feel deep love for her. (It is bizarre that I feel this still.) The obsession is gone, but the overall desire to be close to her is still here. I sometimes question “does she want me?”, “does she even care?”, “will she reach out?”, “is she happy?”, “are we destined to be together?”, “given the opportunity to start over, would I take it?”, “do I even still want this?”, “is there someone else meant for me who is waiting in the wings?”.
What I know is that if this is a twin flame connection, the pain is not her fault. That’s just how it is. This video confirms that.