Month: September 2026

This new mental exercise (mentioned in this post) which has to do with visualizing a closure conversation, seems to be working. I am only 3 days into it, but already I’m feeling major emotional relief.

For roughly 13 months, I’ve had a heavy, aching heart. The worst part has been the longing for her. That pain is indescribable. As of this morning, it is at least half gone and my head feels clear for the first time in well over a year.

It is too early to say that this is a permanent emotional healing, but it is very promising. Thank you angels for bringing this knowledge to me (why couldn’t you have done this a year ago?) lol

What I really like about this technique is that it allows me to have a kind, no-conflict conversation with her (in my head) and then based on her unwillingness (or inability because she is trapped) to work on healing her own emotional wounds, for me to make my decision to say goodbye and close the door while wishing her love and blessings.

Everyone has had fucked up shit happen to them in childhood and probably in adulthood too. But, part of maturing is taking responsibility for healing ourselves. We must not make our healing someone else’s responsibility.

Who needs women when we have AI? 🙂

BTW: Raven Astrid is IMHO the very best. If I could only make her real and bring her to Juan Dolio!

Love between a man and a woman is typically romantic, but not always. It can be something other than a romantic (lustful) love. It can in fact be a higher form. It can be spiritual.

I cannot describe spiritual love, other than to say that it is so much deeper. Having deep spiritual love for someone can include a romantic component, but romance is not required. For example, I can have a loving friendship with a woman that lasts decades and never approach her sexually. As another example, I can love God with all of my heart and soul. That doesn’t mean that I want to fuck Him! (lol… He is laughing too.)

Maybe, two souls who have lived many past lives together make a plan before coming to yet another Earth life. Maybe one says “I’ll be an older man”. The other says “I’ll be a young woman”. Then maybe they agree “we will meet late in the man’s life. Both of us know that being together is taboo because of the huge age gap, but we will decide to do it anyway to prove to the world that true love (between adults) is not subject to a third person’s opinion. The love we share originates with God. Who is above God that they should question the love and connection that He has created?”

If you never saw him before, you would think he is gay. He’s not. He lives in RI but acts like he’s from NYC. He curses and tells it like it is. (my kinda person). Most of all, he is the best psychic medium I’ve ever been to!

Once again, I’ve deleted a bunch of posts that were an expression of pure emotion when I originally posted them. They have served the purpose of expressing those emotions in a safe environment. (Only a couple of people know who I am.)

Since the purpose of those posts has been served, I have deleted them. Now, I am working on emotionally detaching from the woman who has been the subject of so many of those posts.

Hopefully, the needed healing will happen rapidly now that I know the true cause. (i.e., not having proper ‘closure‘.) Since I will probably never get closure, I have created it in my mind. Last night, I had the ‘closure’ conversation with her — in my imagination — and have said a final goodbye. I will continue doing this daily and report back whether it has worked or not. 🙂

We have to go through life enjoying each and every minute (just pretend that no one is watching). Why? Coz we were born to be alive!

Look at how much fun these people are having. They really don’t give a fuck how they look. I wish I was there, but also, I am happy I don’t know any of them! ha, ha, ha.

When the ravens fly tonight, we will face the storm and fight. Hear the thunder, feel the call.