I have received a comment that I need to respond to.
A blog visitor wrote, “I am intrigued by this blog. Are you a male or female? At first, I thought male because of posts about race cars and hockey. Then I thought female because of posts about love and emotion. So, which is it?“
So, here is my story: I am a male. In fact, I’m an older (senior) male. I’ve been divorced for 28+ years and have lived alone with no female companionship the entire time. I really did not want a relationship. I had a life to build and once I built it, I settled in and made a very peaceful life for myself. Then I met ‘her’ (a year ago). We were just friends mainly because she is much, much younger. Although I look and act probably 10 years younger than my actual age, I’m sure she would be embarrassed to be seen with me. The thing is, I am so connected to her. This connection is not just emotional, but psychic and spiritual.
We had a bit of a fight 10 months ago and haven’t communicated since. Intuitively, I feel that one day we will be together, maybe it will only be a friendship. If so, that’s okay. I just love her so deeply (and don’t understand why) but just sharing part of my life with her is 1000 times better than being without her. She refuses to admit it, but I feel that she has deep feelings for me too. The thing is, a relationship never really got started between us. I know nothing about her, but I ‘feel’ that she feels sad and trapped in her current life. My love is so intense, I just want her to be free and to be happy. I would like to help her get to that place even if eventually, her life did not include me. Seeing her strong, independent and happy is really what I want most.
