It’s over. I’m done. I’ve been using this blog to express my strongest emotions because it is very unhealthy to suppress emotions and because I have no one who I choose to discuss these topics with.
But I no longer need to. I have decided to give up on her. I was holding out hope that although there is a huge age gap, that she would realize that I was offering her true deep healthy love. I was hopeful that she would want to heal her emotional wounds and that within my love, she would find “light”…. God’s light.
For one year now, I have been hoping that she would reach out. I am very disappointed that she has not even tried. I cannot waste the rest of my life waiting for someone who will never come.
So, I’m gone, this is my last post. For those who got addicted to my saga, I’m sorry to leave you, but it is time for you move on too. Look at your own life instead of mine. Look at yourself and improve whatever it might be that you don’t like about yourself.
May God bless you all, as He has blessed me. Maybe we’ll meet one day in ‘real’ life. I need to get on with mine. You should get on with yours, too.
