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This site is dedicated to my good friend, Tracey L. Fisher who passed away on September 29, 2021. In our conversations, which were usually about politics and always intense, Tracey ended every single sentence with, “you feel me?”
Yes, I do brother. And at times, I still feel you around me. So, I talk with you like you were still here in the physical. And you help me through some crazy thoughts that I have from time-to-time. Thanks. You are a great man and a great friend.
Great movie by the best man in the field.
Are you pretending to be fine? Do you hide the hurt inside? Do you get up each morning, put on your armor and straighten your mask? (I see through it all.)
You can’t move forward because you fear making yet another big mistake. Your heart says one thing and your head says the opposite.
Listen to your heart. The entire Universe is speaking to you through your heart. You fear getting hurt again. But you know instinctively that this relationship is very different from “that” time. This one feels like home, because it is. This person is different. This person stands for truth and honor and light and love and God.
Break the cycle. I know you can. Move forward. Take one small step. Then look around. If all is ok, take another small step. If that was too big. Take a smaller step. But if you sit much longer, the opportunity to change your life may very well pass.
If you truly love someone, but you are not with them because you fear being rejected or you fear a demand of commitment, focus on your love. You will get the courage to reach out only when your love is Louder Than Your Fear.
[lyrics] “We go home, through fire, through snow. Take my hand. I carry you home.”
[my feelings toward ‘the younger woman’] Yes, I am old and tired. But, I am strong. If you cannot go on, I will carry you. Let me carry you. I love you that much.
If you have been working hard to control your life, but your life is all fucked up, maybe it is time to do what is in your heart instead of what is in your head. Sit quietly and feel God’s love. Let it fill your heart. Then, surrender to His will. That means doing what you feel He wants you to do, not what your ego wants. (Serve God not your ego.)
Trust in God. Trust in the people who He sends to love you.
He knows best what is good for you. Look inside yourself to find and understand your fear. Then face and overcome your fear. Know that God is with you and if you are with Him, His power is yours to use as needed. Nothing can harm you.
Surrender your will to His. Follow His plan, not yours.
I remember this song (below) as a kid. My mom played it all the time. Clearly it was one of her favorites. And now, all these years later, it describes my emotional state exactly. Once again, this is about the younger woman who I have posted about multiple times.
I tried a new way of detaching from her. I call it the “internal closure conversation” method. It has helped greatly, but I still feel an emotional attachment to her. This deep-love, soul-connection situation truly defies explanation.
Anyway, here is the song that sums up my feelings.
Most times, people who have been hurt, hurt others. This is especially true in romantic relationships. Those who have had their heart broken, unconsciously tend to break other’s hearts.
The lesson: if you have suffered a broken heart after a breakup, don’t rush into another relationship to distract yourself from the emotional pain. You must take whatever time is needed to heal. Then, and only then, will you be able to treat a new connection with the patience and respect it deserves.
A man takes on the most difficult tasks that humanity can throw at him. Fighting every possible threat. Fighting to protect his family. Killing other men in War. Suffering the hardships of living in brutal conditions.
Yes, he hurts. And yes, he can patch himself up and go back to the fight. But, there is nothing so rewarding for a man as a woman who will tend to his wounds. She doesn’t need to say a word. Applying bandages is her recognition of his suffering. And if she does that, he will be energized to go out and kill 1000 more.
In this video, Astrid Vorn (AI) sings of standing by her man. She says she will stand with him and share the pain. But we don’t want you to share our pain. We only want you to see that we take on the pain for the both of us. We endure the pain so that you don’t have to. (Turn on closed captions to get the words.)
Are you stuck in a life that you don’t want, wondering how you got there and unable to break out? Let’s take a closer look.
Most people who feel stuck got stuck because of poor choices in their past and most of those choices were self-sabotage.
Typically, this self-sabotage is an unconscious act of self-punishment. The self-punishment is often driven by your belief that you do not deserve happiness (or success).
This then brings us to: “what has happened in my life that makes be believe that I do not deserve happiness?” If this is hitting a chord with you, it is imperative that you find answers and heal the wounds.
You will get unstuck if you heal, but this type of issue is normally very deep seated and most often requires the services of a professional.
If this is you, please take this seriously and do not procrastinate. We all have a certain ‘darkness within’. But love heals all. Let those around you who are ‘of the light’ love you and get healthy for yourself and for them.
They want you healthy and happy. Yes, you do deserve happiness and you deserve to be loved.
