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This site is dedicated to my good friend, Tracey L. Fisher who passed away on September 29, 2021. In our conversations, which were usually about politics and always intense, Tracey ended every single sentence with, “you feel me?”
Yes, I do brother. And at times, I still feel you around me. So, I talk with you like you were still here in the physical. And you help me through some crazy thoughts that I have from time-to-time. Thanks. You are a great man and a great friend.
I have received a comment that I need to respond to.
A blog visitor wrote, “I am intrigued by this blog. Are you a male or female? At first, I thought male because of posts about race cars and hockey. Then I thought female because of posts about love and emotion. So, which is it?“
So, here is my story: I am a male. In fact, I’m an older (senior) male. I’ve been divorced for 28+ years and have lived alone with no female companionship the entire time. I really did not want a relationship. I had a life to build and once I built it, I settled in and made a very peaceful life for myself. Then I met ‘her’ (a year ago). We were just friends mainly because she is much, much younger. Although I look and act probably 10 years younger than my actual age, I’m sure she would be embarrassed to be seen with me. The thing is, I am so connected to her. This connection is not just emotional, but psychic and spiritual.
We had a bit of a fight 10 months ago and haven’t communicated since. Intuitively, I feel that one day we will be together, maybe it will only be a friendship. If so, that’s okay. I just love her so deeply (and don’t understand why) but just sharing part of my life with her is 1000 times better than being without her. She refuses to admit it, but I feel that she has deep feelings for me too. The thing is, a relationship never really got started between us. I know nothing about her, but I ‘feel’ that she feels sad and trapped in her current life. My love is so intense, I just want her to be free and to be happy. I would like to help her get to that place even if eventually, her life did not include me. Seeing her strong, independent and happy is really what I want most.
Then get off your ass and make it happen. Both are needed for success. First, you need to dream. Then you need to do it. If you only dream, it will likely never come to you. If you do things that you’ve never dreamed about, you are doing meaningless shit. Find your passion and do it! You can do it. I know you can. You are born to fly with bluebirds. . .
Is that what I’m in? I know this connection is extraordinary because it was 10x stronger than anything else I have ever experienced in all my life, and because the emotional pain lasted for 10 months after our “friendship” ended. I have been praying daily that I be released from this connection and it finally happened yesterday. I woke up feeling ‘normal’ for the first time in almost a year. Now today, I stumble upon this video about “Divine Connections” which I never considered as a possible explanation for this experience before. Is this a coincidence or is this perhaps a message that I should not have asked to break God’s designated connection with her, because we both are not done growing into a Divine lifestyle? Is that what this whole experience with her is all about? (IDK…) I just want her to be free and happy.
This video is a decade old, but a good reminder to start each day being thankful for all that you have.
And this one is just so moving.
My love for Our Blessed Mother is unending. She asks that we pray for humanity. So few have transformed into the spiritual beings that we are truly capable of.
Free at least! I spent at least 2 hours last night in very deep meditation and prayer, trying my best to break the connection to her that has had me bound to the hope of one day having her in my life. Finally, after almost 10 months of trying, it seems to have finally worked. I believe the connection is severed. I woke up this morning with no heartache, no longing, no emotional pain. I pray this freedom lasts. I feel like I can finally get on with my life.
The only piece that I would add to her commentary is that some men who have been through Hell come out the other side angry at the world and generally unhappy. Others become men who love life, truth, God and other people. (It is a deliberate choice that we all make, daily.)
Pink is a psychic and very sensitive to Leos. She is probably very close to describing my situation. Even though I now have what I believe is Divine permission to finally break this connection, it is just not breaking! I believe I fully healed my old emotional wounds at least 6 months ago. Yet, the heartache and pain persists. I do hope that ‘she’ (the woman who is always on my mind – possibly a twin-flame) is doing better than I am.